Picked up by the Darkness
I feel that once again I need to go back to the very beginning for analysis.
Born through the Cult of Christ, specifically Orthodoxy, I have strabismus in my right eye since birth, which is not very noticeable to others, and later I wear a lens in my left eye due to my developed myopia. Also, since my earliest childhood, I was constantly seasick in the car, I could get sick from physical exertion (fainting), I often got sunstrokes, I could get sick when taking blood from a vein, because of the weakness of my arms I could not pull myself up on the crossbar. Nothing changed with age, but it only got worse. In adolescence and adolescence, there was not enough energy for anything other than studying and work. In the future, worrying about one's own health only intensified Introverted Contemplation and pulled away from the middle path in society.
Well, what kind of "bad karma" have I been like this since I was born? Therefore, I have already written earlier that it is necessary to purposefully praise the Dark Gods, removing karma and commandments from oneself.
The doctors diagnosed vegetative-vascular dystonia and believed that I was on the verge of normal, simply not sending me to take the necessary tests. The environment consisting of Cultists of Christ and Cultists of Atheism also did not help or did not want to help in any way, which further reduced their credibility. I was also constantly dissatisfied with my standard of living. All this was the impetus for my fascination with witchcraft, given that I already had minimal psychic abilities.
Since the doctors couldn't cure me, I found out for myself that I've had low testosterone levels all my life. However, it is either consumed during life, or accumulated in reserves using the "burnt candle" method (let's remember and remember all sorts of rappers who are popular only in their youth, and then quickly burn out).
I can describe that with low testosterone, visual perception is more subtle, visual brightness is darker, anxiety is higher, muscle tone is lower (such that the back muscles cannot keep their posture straight and the spine bends, for example), the need for communication is lower (you can read books alone indefinitely, watch movies and TV series and the like). In general, experience can be gained from any condition.
As a result, it turned out that in my case, some natural substances from sports nutrition turned out to be the most effective, which later led to a passion for biohacking. Accordingly, the next entry will be devoted to the personal experience of biohacking, and personal experience in magic is above all.
